"I curse a lot," Minaj tells The BoomBox after watching "My Truth." "That's the thing, when people edit your life down into 21 minutes, every little thing can seem like a bit much, you know. After I watched it, I definitely was like, 'I have to take that four-letter word out of my dictionary from now on. That one that begins with an 'f'? Yeah, I really shouldn't say it that much.'"
Straight out of the Southside of Jamaica, Queens, Nicki's fiery tongue couldn't have been that shocking to her family and friends back home in New York City. "It depends on where you grew up," she explains carefully. "I grew up in a household where... My father cursed and I think that kinda stuck with me but now looking at [the show], I was kinda cringing at times. It'll take a little bit of growth on my part."
She may have been a bit startled by her demeanor on the show but Minaj says that her closest friends supported her regardless. After all, she admits their opinions matter most. Two pals in particular called immediately after the special aired.
"My two best friends, Tyesha and Candice, were actually on the show last night," Minaj shares. "They both hit me and I was just asking them, like, 'Did I look horrible?' And they were like, 'Girl, you just seemed like you were on top of your business.' Their opinion means more to me than anyone in the spotlight."
As the animated MC prepares to drop her revamped sophomore project, Pink Friday: Roman Reloaded -- The Re-Up, fans finally have the chance to get a closer look at her day-to-day schedule onscreen. Hip-hop's real life Barbie was initially hesitant at the idea of having cameras follow her every move, however, she's become more confident in inviting the public to witness her best and worst days.
"I was so skeptical," she admits. "I'm not gonna lie and say that I really wanted to bare everything but I also didn't wanna play myself and put out a show where I was fronting for the camera. But I figured, you know what, people gon' have to get the good and the bad.
"I know I'm a good person and I think that intelligent people, when they watch it, they'll understand that it's just that my life is so crazy [that] sometimes I'm in 'spaz out' mode. At the end of the day when I'm mellowed out and I have a moment to think and be calm, it's just genuine love for my fans that drives me to do everything I do and go this hard. I do have a friendly relationship with [my fans] and they push me to continue to create."
The part of the series that Minaj says her supporters should enjoy takes place in a personal setting that she hasn't revealed up until now.
"I'm watching the second episode now," the "Freedom" rapper discloses. "And the fans will get to see the inside of my house. I know my Barbz are gonna go crazy because they're always bugging me about it and I'm always promising them that they'll see it. So finally this time, they're gonna win the battle and see the house."
Young Money's first lady reveals the scene features herself and her crew in the kitchen, in which she's expressing her annoyance and frustration over not having a certain kind of food at her reach. "They're gonna be cracking up when they find out what kind of food it was," she says with a laugh.
Beyond the personal lessons learned and bursts of indignation, Minaj shares that the most touching part of the first episode was watching her Barbz react during the signing.
"I didn't realize how emotional it was," the 29-year-old states. "The camera guy told me, like, 'Do you realize a lot of your fans were crying?' And I said, 'No, really?' And when I watched it and saw their passion, when they were like, 'I love you so much!' I had a little bit of an emotional experience with that.
"I teared up last night. For me, I'm sitting there and I'm so busy... and I'm just trying to make sure that I make eye contact with them and give them a memorable experience. A lot of times I don't even realize how emotional they actually are, so when I got to see that I was very moved."
Minaj hopes to include one scene that hasn't made it off the cutting room floor -- she's working towards having it included in an upcoming episode.
"I'ma see if they can still get it in there somehow," she says excitedly. "I wish they were able to show the 'Freedom' video being recorded in London -- oh my goodness -- because it's definitely the most special video that I've ever shot and it just happened to be, like, five degrees out there.
"We went out to the outskirts of London and it was literally hailing and we had to get the video done because we had one day. It was so cold and I'm shooting in the cold rain and hail but it was just a very dope look."
As involved as Nicki Minaj is with her fans, one wonders whether or not she may feel as if she's giving too much of herself at times. What makes this the right time to document and share this part of her life with millions of viewers?
"To be honest, I don't know that this is the right time," the award-winning entertainer starts slowly. "But I think that every decision in my career is a decision that I make not fully knowing that it's the right time but just trusting that I'ma make it work regardless."
"Nicki Minaj: My Truth" airs Nov. 11 and 18 at 10:30PM on E!
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